Anonymous: People are being assholes because of anonymity. I think you're great and would rather you not delete. ):

I dont even consider their behaviour unusual or even offensive anymore because of the despicable things i get sent every time i turn anon back on, sigh. Some people are just determined to misunderstand me or just flat out refuse to believe i have no ulterior motives. To them all i must want is internet attention but they then fail to realise that if it were true i would be spending all my time on tumblr… Which im clearly not doing.
Sigh sigh sigh. But thank you so much, its so sweet of you to say and it means a lot to me that you care enough to ask me to stay! However my answer remains the same as earlier… Im gonna go away for a few days and think about what will make me happiest and if that is deleting tumblr then it will be deleted :( i hope you understand x

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Anonymous: nobody can actually love their fans on a true level, you love the idea and concept of them and losing them would be devastating. It does not mean you legitimately cherish them, but then again you never said that you did. You can care about a few, or even a large handful. But don't act like ya shit don't stank at the end of the day. Also a really easy fix is just to go on a hiatus. What are you worried about to begin with, losing followers from being inactive? You'd lose them all if you nuked it.

I HAVE been inactive (compared to what i used to post) literally just a couple of reblogs a day or posting picture updates through instagram and its not worth it for me i dont see the point in keeping a blog i wont use (especially when the app takes up space on my phone i could use for other things) so i want to make 10000% sure i dont want it anymore because starting from scratch would be shit. I’d lose my theme and all the modifications i did years ago for it and have since forgotten the codes for, i would lose all the people i follow (approx 900) and there is no way i would be able to refollow every single person, my tumblr friends may change urls etc etc. I dont care about the number of followers i have, i was happier on here when i barely had any, and yeah it may be shocking to you but i care about every damn follower that reaches out to me. I do not need the internet or any attention from it to be happy. Not everyone on this earth is a self centred human being and you can form your own opinion of me thats all well and dandy but i know in my heart that i genuinely care about my followers. I care about my mutuals when i see that they’re depressed or struggling with something, i care about followers who come to me for help or advice and i even care to SOME extent (though granted not v much bc im not a fckin saint) about the anons who feel the need to criticise my actions or force their negativity on me because once upon a time they might have been good people that got fucked over and the thought of that makes me sad and makes me want to get to the bottom of their issues.
I just care about people ok? Its not the internet ‘fame’ i care about ive just been through a fucking lot in my life and i never really had support so i try to support as many people as i can bc you never know who’s struggling with what and what a kind word can mean to them.
I HATE THIS FUCKING GENERATION I FUCKING CARE ABOUT OTHER FUCKING HUMANS BECAUSE I KNOW HOW SHITTY THE WORLD CAN BE BUT IM STILL DISTRUSTED AND MADE OUT TO BE SELF OBSESSED. UGH.

Anonymous: If you do end up leaving, could I take you on a Skype date involving vinyl and candles before you do?

Im kinda sorta seeing someone so unfortunately not bc im a one ‘crush’ at a time kinda gal but that sounds rlly cute, thank you awh c: x

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